I am with you and I will watch over you wherever you go and I'll bring you back to this land. And I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.
When Jacob awoke from his sleep, he thought, "Surely the Lord is in this place, and I was not aware of it." Genesis 28: 15-16
I loved this land the moment my foot touched it. I felt an attachment I'd never experienced before. I loved it and declared to my husband that this would be ours forever, We would pass it down to our children and all of our family would always have a place to live.
As an Air Force brat I'd moved a lot, every two to four years. Then when I married Don the same pattern continued, pack up and go every two to four years. We made it six years in the Dallas area.
I've never loved a place before. I used to think with all of my moving that places where just places, it was the people who made them special. My parents live in Seattle, but I never lived there, my grandparents lived in Minnesota and growing up visiting them was a comforting thing because nothing changed, but it wasn't my home. I don't feel a particular fondness for any of the homes I've lived in, or the schools I went to. I have a great fondness for the people I met and love. People make a place feel like home. But to settle down with the idea that this would be our home for the rest of our lives is something foreign to me.
I guess I'm feeling this way because we just hit the four year mark here. My internal clock tripped an alarm that's saying, "Come on, time to have a huge garage sale and go find a new adventure". Leave the problems of this place behind, leave the plans that didn't quite work out, leave the dreams that didn't happen and go to a shiny new place of hope where this time I'll do it all right and everything will work out perfectly.
That's how I thought of it when I was a kid. A chance to start again.
But that's not going to happen this time. God has brought me to a land of promise, a place of beauty and peace and told me to wait. It doesn't suck. But how does the dream of acting and producing, centered mostly in cities like LA and Atlanta and Austin, happen here?
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
After the most famous line from Gone With the Wind, you know the one, when Rhett leaves, Scarlett is devastated and falls weeping on the stairs of her mansion and a flood of memories wash over her, "Land, it's the only thing that matters, it's the only thing that lasts." "It's the only thing you love more than me." "The red earth of Tara, it's where you draw your strength."
She decides she'll go home and regroup, after all tomorrow is another day.
In the storms of life it's important to have a safe harbor, a deep connection to something grounded. You need to know where home is. That way when you go out, you'll always have a place to come back to.